October 6th, 2006
agape
i have always admired those people who perpetually have flocks of friends that surround them that never seem to ran out. they are not the bossy types. theyre just the nice type who seem to have an invisible friend magnet attached to their personality. i never had that kind of magnet. if i ever had one that would be the "im-married-and im-an-asshole" kind. i met quite a few of this nice people that had significantly affected and changed my life.
one of my roomates has that kind of magnetism. it emanates from her so effortlessly that she's unaware of it. she's the person that has no single flaw i can think of, no matter how hard i rack my brain.well except the terrible mood swings and hilariously surprising weirdness that i can actually understand and relate with. (she wants all the people attending her 22nd birthday to wear party hats.she's dead serious about it)
she's too nice that you can never say a bad thing about her but she's bitchy enough that you can be sure she's pretty normal.she looks beyond appearances and can actually see right thru you and definitely one of the people who made me know what genuine concern feels like. that's not an easy feat since im not exactly an easy person to get along with, as hard as i endeavored to work on it.
why am i writing this? she's leaving our dormitory. she might not know about this but she's one of the people, if not the only person, that i look forward going home to after a long day in school. i got attached to her that way.
this is exactly the reason i dont want to get close to anyone anymore. letting go has never been my forte.
