Mind Whispers

more than a year already...and he still has the power to make me cry. again i am reminded not to be too trusting. and honestly, even though i am scared of growing up alone, which almost melted my resolve to stay single...almost... being reminded of the past strengthened my resolve to stay safe inspite of those absurd moments when i have the longing for a sincere relationship 

time is indeed a healer.

and considering the circumstances at present..

my conclusion that they're all the same stays true.

someone almost made me forget. someone almost made me believe.

almost.

novelty fades i guess and if there's anyone to be blamed...

that should be me.

gullible trusting me.

the burden of walking the extra mile is turning into a  perfunctory routine.why does it always have to be like this? i am drained and well spent.  those moments of useless introspection had instilled an irrational fear... fear of acknowledging a well kept and fatal vulnerability, vulnerability that  had left a bitter taste i cant seem to eradicate.

WHY CANT YOU WALK THE EXTRA MILE FOR ME?

i am bone weary and broken.

im tired of being "ok" when im not.

im tired of putting up a happy front when i feel otherwise.

i dont want to care what people think anymore.im tired of doing that.

i am bitter and i dont care if you think that's pathetic. that im pathetic.

heartless. cruel creatures.

you are all the same.