I wasnt able to sleep well for a week. i would just lie there
in the bed with eyes wide open staring at the nothingness and
feeling the stillness of the room.the reason? i myself just cant
fathom. i figured that maybe the humid weather in cavite contributed to
this unexpected restlesness and that had i been in the dorm, i would
probably sleep better since the aircon there is such a big plus this
summer. my theory proved to be wrong. i slept in the dorm last night
and it's still the same. i was just lying there. contemplating.granted,
i have a lot in mind, me getting older and going nowhere, my
frustrations that would just remain frustrations.and i miss my
other roomates who graduated or went to the states. i wish theyre
here.ironic for me since when we were all together i was wishing that
they would just go away. they have this irritating habit of having a
speaking voice raised to a thousand decibels without any compunction to
whether someone's sleeping or not. but now i genuinely miss them. their
infectious laughter. their insulting jokes. their hilarious stories.
these people taught me alot. a LOT. i was never good in socializing yet
i have this inept ability to fit in like an oversized chameleon. when
will i ever learn to just be unaffected with people around me? apathy
is a much desired trait as of now. in 2 months time im going out of the
dorm. another difficult feat to just smile and laugh, seemingly
unaffected by the separation. i'll miss my chinay friend gracie who
kissed and hugged and just gave me a tissue when i was bawling my eyes
out at 5am in the morn. i know, weird time for crying.i was that
heartbroken.i'll miss des whom i call bhelat. going out in baywalk
roxas, telling her stories.making her laugh...her teasing. and mia, her
ever ready squeek of "surprise" (eardrum busting kinda scream) even
though she knows that she's going to be surprised. wait, that's an
oxymoron. lolz.our talks about guys and life in general (but mostly
about guys.haha!)and of course, the controversial phleemers.
who would forget the time we played "tong its" and if someone loses
she has to take something off? i was hoping that the game would finish
with me unscathed.(too much self confidence that im good in
cards) but it turned out thatthe game finished with me only
wearing my panties.the reason behind this is for them to see my body(particularly my boobs).
living in a dorm, everyone's used to seeing barenaked bodies around, and im
not. (try to imagine my horror on my first day in the dorm) i
would always go to my locker and seek cover when dressing up and that
made them amused, ergo, the stripping game just to appease their curiousity.
i realized that i LIKE meeting and getting to know people and their
personalities. it's the fact that i have this habit of getting fond and
attached to them which is the problem. i also realized that with them
around, i get distracted from my destructive introspection and
divert my thoughts to more trivial stuffs like for example, lack of
sleep, cramming for an exam and the likes. i terribly miss them.
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i miss someone. 
Currently feeling: contemplative
You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator. 
